I’m a reader of Ben Rockwood’s Blog.. And his recent entries about the life of the sysadmin have really got me thinking. He hits the nail on the head every time and I’ve decided to write a little about my own experience in the IT industry.First of all, I’m not trying to copy Ben at cuddletech, http://www.cuddletech.com/blog/ … I’m just agreeing with him.
Ego is the driving force behind the sysadmin.
Certainly in myself.
It’s definatly not a bad thing. I mean, ego is the reason that I’ve learned the things I’ve learned. It’s what’s forced me to do what I do. Without ego, there would be no reason to work to constantly be better.
Unfortunatly, in me at least, ego goes way to far. I know this is true, it bothers me, and it affects my attitude towards work. Just recently I was handed an assignment that I felt was below me, even though I know that I’m not above anything, ego made me quit.
Luckily it worked out in my favor, I was able to find a better position in a better company for a lot more money, but it certainly could have gone the other way.
Ben makes the point that we are not above anyone. We are not smarter, better, or less expendable. I know that’s true. Why then do I still find myself feeling superior and above tasks?
The thing is, I know I’m not that good. I’ve met many, many sysadmins that are just so much better than I will ever be. I almost never immediatly know the answer to an issue. The thing that makes me good is that I am not afraid of not knowing the answer. I will take on any issue, regardless if it’s over my head, and I will find the solution.
I’m in this line of work because I love it. I don’t want to answer phones, log calls, this is not just a job for me. This is what I want to do with my life. I want to work on complicated issues that challenge me and make me a better admin.
People are miserable all the time. All the time. Working jobs they hate.
I will not be one of those people.
Unfortunatly this attitude is restricting for me. An overconfident person is annoying. I’m an overconfident person. I’m annoying. I know this is going to get me in trouble eventually, and I want it to go away.
So, his entry dug up these feelings. Made me think about my attitude, how I interact with others, and where I want my career and my life to go. That’s all.
The ego has to be toned down.